Friday, August 15, 2008
The Cat Appears to be Out of the Bag
Despite my intentions to keep this whole thing a secret until October, things have not really gone that way. At all. It's just that, when I was talking to my friends (or acquaintances, or random people I met at the grocery store) about the IVF, there is one thing I did not factor in... their desire for a resolution to the story. I can't exactly blame them for it, I mean, of course they want to know if it worked or not. The problem is I am still not that convinced that it worked (despite the evidence) and I really don't know what to say when people ask. I try to use the old "Things are looking good so far," or "I'll let you know when I have news," but it's really not working. At all. People are asking me at work "How are you feeling? No really, how are you feeling?" and I have to believe that there is a subtext there, either that or a lot of people randomly started caring about my feelings over the summer who never gave a shit before. Sigh. Oh well. I guess I should be grateful, I just don't want to feel like I let anyone down if this doesn't work out.